There’s a certain kind of person who goes to a wedding in another state and thinks, “What a beautiful place. We should come back and kayak sometime.”

Then there’s us. We went to our son’s wedding and thought, “Did we remember to thaw the hamburger before we left?”

While we were basically quarantined at the venue, guests were out doing actual things — lakes, museums, zoos, little downtown districts with string lights. More than one person commented specifically on the lack of rain, which felt borderline miraculous given that the week before, Judy and I were mentally preparing for Noah’s Ark: Wedding Edition. Instead, the sun came out, people got mildly sunburned, and Midwesterners started wearing Thunder attire with reckless confidence.

One guest called it “Texas-lite.” Fewer cities, less traffic, but still that independent spirit with a side of, “You wanna go to the casino for a couple hours?” Honestly, that might be the most accurate tourism slogan the state has ever had.

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The wedding yanked me out of my shell like someone grabbing a turtle and dropping it into a family reunion. I do better than most actual turtles — I walk four or five miles a day, Judy swims or lifts nearly every day — but the wedding forced us into a different category entirely. Socially active. Emotionally on-call. Logistically overbooked.

For one weekend, I became outgoing. Charming, even. I made conversation, asked follow-up questions, made eye contact for what felt like six consecutive minutes. That kind of performance takes a toll on a middle-aged man. By Monday I had fully reverted, quietly staring at a grocery list and wondering if we already had shredded cheese at home.

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Here’s the question I keep asking myself: are we addicted to being needed?

All the local kids are married now. We have one grandchild here and two more on the way. Judy still works full-time. In late August, we become billet parents again for a couple more junior hockey players. When free time appears, our minds don’t drift toward “let’s disappear into the mountains.” They drift toward whether we’re stocked up on snacks before the kids come over, or whether Once Upon a Child has anything worth grabbing this weekend.

Judy ran the wedding as both head planner and mother of the groom. Centerpieces, linens, and boxes of “we might need this” colonized every spare room in the house. I’m fairly certain we lost a closet.

Even after the wedding, with friends still in town, Judy’s first reaction was not enthusiasm. The tank was empty. But the grill came out, lawn chairs appeared, people laughed — and at some point it just felt right again, the way it always seems to once you stop dreading the thing and start doing it. The storm shelter in the garage floor remains our unofficial tourist attraction. I’ve given that tour more times than I can count.

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We’ll take our two-week vacation this summer. We’ll probably drive to see our parents in August while Judy works remote to stretch the days. We check those boxes. But I wonder sometimes whether we’re healthy because we don’t spend three weekends a month chasing adventure across Texas and Oklahoma, or healthy because emotionally we know we’re doing what we’re supposed to be doing.

Not every morning do we wake up thinking, “Great day to reorganize everything around babysitting.” But when too many days pass without seeing the kids or grandkids, we look at each other around 7 p.m. and say, “I miss them.”

That’s probably the pattern until it isn’t. Someday the house will be still. No baby clothes to hunt down, no hockey kids rolling in, no one asking to see the tornado bunker. If we’re lucky — physically steady, mentally intact, still on the kids’ good side — we’ll buy that camper and drive around the country.

And if we’ve behaved well enough, maybe they’ll even give us their address.