A Night in the Life of a Penalty Box Attendant

Saturday night was a hockey night. Friday night had not gone particularly well for the home team. A three-minute stretch early in the third period pretty much sealed it. After that, we decided the first break past the 10-minute mark would be our time to leave. We weren’t alone. With the team struggling, the people who stayed were probably doing so more out of loyalty than any expectation that the evening was suddenly going to turn around. The coach seemed to share our assessment. At 11:00 that night, one of the captains contacted the boys and told them they needed to be at the rink to help some young kids skate. This wasn’t a few guys volunteering for a community activity. It was the entire team. The coach had apparently decided the best way to disguise his frustration with a loss was to make the boys do community service while calling it a team bonding. I respect the creativity.

When Judy and I entered the rink Saturday night, we were hopeful the boys would be a little more locked in. In fairness, the coach had been bouncing the lines around quite a bit, and the other team had gotten its first victory of the season the night before. I was pretty confident our boys weren’t going to help them make it two in a row. After I cleared the ticket check with my season pass, I was approached by the guy who was now the billet dad for our recently departed hockey boy. He had a job for me in the penalty box. He was very focused on getting me properly set up for my new responsibilities, so there wasn’t much time for conversation. He took me into a room, handed me an official game vest and gave me some basic instructions. He also warned me that the entrance to the penalty box off the ice could be slippery. This was apparently important information. I tipped my Warriors hat at him before calculating that, based on my age and my newly elevated position within the organization, I should probably use the bathroom before the game started.

The penalty box is right there on the ice, so the view is excellent. The only problem is that the home hockey boys tend to lean out from the bench and occupy approximately 73 percent of the visual field. With a better view comes greater responsibility, and I was careful to keep that in mind. I had also forgotten about the smell. From our regular seats on the other side of the rink, I had largely forgotten what comes out of a hockey locker room. Really, “smell” doesn’t adequately describe it. It’s more of an atmosphere. A heavy, humid fog of fermented effort, sweat, equipment and several things that probably shouldn’t be combined in the same zip code. I hadn’t missed it, but I recognized it immediately. There was also no bench for me. I assume this was intentional. The penalty box is designed to make the boys feel guilty about their actions. I quickly discovered there is no guilt taking place in the penalty box. There is sitting, drinking water, laughing, watching the game and occasionally wondering why you were given a penalty. Guilt was not on the agenda.

My job description was pretty simple. When a boy came into the box, I handed him a water bottle and asked, “Do you want me to open the gate or are you going to jump it?” I was relieved to discover that, over three periods, I only had to open the gate once. Every other boy cleared it easily. In my mind, this was perfect. If they chose to jump the gate themselves, I couldn’t be blamed for putting them back on the ice too early. I had essentially delegated liability. There were probably three or four guys in the box during each period, so there was plenty of opportunity to practice my gate-management strategy. I was also responsible for the replacement pucks. This was a revelation. The pucks were stored on ice in a cooler. As I thought about it, this made perfect sense. A warm puck would bounce differently than a cold puck. Why introduce an unnecessary variable into a game where near-grown men are already skating around at 20 miles per hour trying to hit each other with sticks? So every period started with a fresh puck from the cooler. We went through about four pucks a period, which meant I was basically the cold-chain logistics manager for the Oklahoma Warriors. I had not prepared for this level of responsibility.

Beyond the water and gate questions, there was very little conversation. I had been told, “If they want to talk, they will talk to you.” If I knew their first name, I used it. Other than that, I was much more quiet than usual. That may have been the biggest sacrifice of the evening. The first period was pretty uneventful. The second period got worse. Or better. I’m still trying to decide. I did go visit Judy during the first intermission. I felt bad that she had to sit alone, although she was a good sport about it. She had actually snuck into the bench area before the game and gotten a picture of me wearing my official vest. I’m pretty sure she was documenting the moment in case my new career suddenly took off.

The biggest challenge after the first period was the photographer. During the first period, I had mostly been standing at the front of the box, watching the game at eye level. Then the photographer arrived and my job description changed from “penalty box monitor” to “avoid becoming a human obstacle in a professional sports photograph.” The photographer was constantly moving around me, and the only place I could retreat was toward the stats booth on my right. I could back up about a foot and watch the game through their somewhat cloudy plexiglass. This created a problem. At one point, the photographer was snapping pictures while a Warriors player was serving a penalty. Suddenly, I heard the Rhinos making a huge commotion. It sounded exactly like they had scored a goal. I did what any highly trained penalty-box professional would do. I opened the gate. The player looked at me. I looked at the player. He did not move. This turned out to be fortunate because there had been no goal. I had simply confused excited hockey players with an actual hockey event. The player had apparently decided to save me from myself by not immediately sprinting onto the ice. That was the last time I acted on instinct. From that point forward, I committed to only responding to the referees. No more gut feelings. No more reading the room. No more interpreting crowd noise. If a referee didn’t move, I didn’t move.

The same little cubbyhole that made me think a goal had been scored also made it difficult to see pucks that flew out of the rink. Most of the time, when I handed a puck over, I received a polite “thank you.” A couple of times, I had no idea what was happening until a referee came skating toward me. That was my cue. I also pulled pucks out a couple of times when they didn’t actually need them, all while trying to avoid the photographer, the boys waiting at the door and the sticks that seemed determined to occupy whatever space I was currently using. As the boys increasingly hogged the front of the box, my available space became whatever area wasn’t occupied by a hockey stick. More than once, sticks were resting across the front gate while I was wedged into the corner like I was part of a Kerplunk game. It was an impregnable trap, but it was a battle I chose not to fight. At one point, the photographer and I nearly shared our little space with a Rhino who took a hit right in front of us. That was exciting. But the real scare came when the puck hit my empty water bottle tucked into the front corner of the box. The bottle fell over. The puck slid into its place. And for a second, that puck just sat there looking at me. It had the expression of a puck that was disappointed it hadn’t been allowed to cause more trouble.

By the end of the game, I had survived three periods, several hockey boys, a photographer, approximately a dozen sticks, four million flying pucks and one gate that I now considered a professional responsibility. And, as is often the case, the thing I’m grateful for isn’t really what I did. It’s the opportunity the thing gave me. There were the little exchanges. The thumbs-up to the kid on the bench who had just scored. The boy who came into the box and told me, “I don’t always deserve a penalty, but I did that time.” There was the player who had been suspended and got to hear me say, “Good to see you out there again!” And there were a few boys who had to suffer through my highly sophisticated hockey analysis. “You guys are looking pretty good tonight.” I didn’t overwhelm them. That would be irresponsible.

But I did take the opportunities when they presented themselves. Because of our breakfast club, I have a little more permission to talk into the lives of these guys. The penalty box gave me even more. These boys have coaches. They have teammates. They have parents. They have plenty of people telling them what to do. I’m not trying to become another one of those people. I’m trying to become someone they’ll listen to when I have something worth saying. That’s the part I don’t want to lose sight of.

The penalty box gave me a chance to hear a little more of what they were saying, see a little more of what they were feeling and have a few conversations that probably wouldn’t have happened from my regular seat across the rink. For one night, I wasn’t just a fan. I was a fan with special privileges. Would I want the job every game? Probably not. I could see Judy sitting alone for an entire season while I played professional penalty-box monitor. But I did come away with something valuable. I learned a little more about the game. I gathered enough information to continue pretending I’m more hockey-smart than I was the previous day. And if asking better questions gives me more credibility with these boys, I’ll happily learn a few more rules.

I’d do almost anything in the hockey world to gain a little more permission to speak into their lives when something matters. Referee? Absolutely not. Those guys are hated no matter how good a job they do. Although, from the penalty box, I will admit something I didn’t expect. Sometimes it looked like the players actually respected them. Of course, I’d have to learn all the rules first. And that seems like an unreasonable amount of work just to be yelled at by teenagers.

The Billet Gods May Have Made Their Decision

Our philosophy with hockey players, and any other strays who may wander through our front door, is pretty simple: If we have an open bed, you are welcome.

We don’t always know how long that welcome will last. Some boys fit into our house easily. Others discover that living with us isn’t quite what they expected, and sometimes we discover the same thing. We like having people to cook for, though, and hearing, “Wow, that was pretty good. What was it?” will always score more points than, “I only eat pizza and hamburgers.”

After the rapid departure of our previous hockey boy, I tried to process things from his side a little more. For four years, his identity had been, “I am wanted by an Ivy League school to play hockey.” When that suddenly disappeared, I could understand why he needed to make a change. I stopped taking his departure quite so personally.

Then, because apparently the best way to deal with one hockey boy leaving is to put another one in his room, NEW showed up.

Our EX, who is also one of the team captains, seems to have been keeping track of the other boys by creating his own unofficial “billet happiness” spectrum. He apparently knows which players are happy, which ones are less happy, and which ones might be one bad dinner away from packing a suitcase. When he left Wednesday evening for his new home, he casually mentioned, “I was talking to another player who is really unhappy at his billet house.” I thought, “Great. I’ll believe it when I see it.” I assumed he was just trying to say something nice on his way out the door. A little verbal reassurance that his leaving wasn’t personal.

Then he texted me the next morning. EX gave me more background on a particular player and suggested I contact the billet coordinator about him. My text to her was simple: “Yeah, we are interested if this kid is looking for a place.” Her response came shortly afterward: “This wasn’t supposed to be communicated at all.” That seemed like a strange way to respond to someone volunteering to take a hockey player off your hands. Despite her frustration, she completed the transaction. By “transaction,” I mean she sent us his paperwork and let us know we could go ahead and contact him. Her terseness left me wondering whether she was simply having a bad day or whether there was more to the story than we were being told.

When NEW arrived before dinner that night, he volunteered to fill us in on “the rest of the story.” Before he got very far, though, his previous billet’s social media post told us most of what we needed to know. He showed it to us. We don’t follow her, so we weren’t exactly sitting around monitoring the situation. I repeated my commitment to him, although this was the first time he had heard it: “Our job is to feed you well and do everything we can to make sure you sleep well.” He took that commitment seriously. Especially the sleep part. He took a few liberties with the upstairs thermostat. Those Minnesota boys would sleep with the window open in the winter if you let them.

NEW arrived on a Thursday night, which meant Friday was a home game. That meant I would be frying bacon. Or at least I thought it did. Since we had been hockey-boy-less for 24 hours, the rest of the hockey breakfast club had already made alternate plans. Once that little hypocrisy was cleared up on breakfast eve, I quickly graduated to putting a few trays of bacon in the oven after my coffee in the morning. The breakfast club showed up, ate well, and then I made another questionable decision. I mentioned the de-commitment story involving our EX to the early arrivals. Their dropped jaws immediately told me I had stepped into an unsafe place. This was not my news to tell. I swore them to secrecy and hoped the statute of limitations on being a bad breakfast host was shorter than the hockey season. The chatter was good, the boys were grateful, and eventually they all left with full stomachs and eyes that had narrowed to barely functional slits. The rapid eye movements were clearly getting close.

The final piece of the story came during the hockey game. We met our EX’s mom a couple of weeks ago. She had a gift bag for the twins at the game. I had told Judy beforehand that I wouldn’t be surprised if she brought something for the girls. She struck me as the kind of person who took care of billet parents in an above-and-beyond sort of way. We talked with her for close to an hour. Early on, I asked the simple question, “How is he doing?” She opened up and told us more than I expected. Then she dropped the nugget that connected everything. “You know my son played a pretty big role in getting you your new hockey boy.”

My eyebrows went up. She explained that the billet coordinator had told EX that we needed to reach out to her if we wanted NEW. My quick response confirmed what I had already suspected. Whatever drama the billet coordinator had been trying to avoid was no longer avoidable. Not surprisingly, she was considerably less chatty with us at the game that night.

The verdict is still out on whether this will be our last year billeting. I had already looked at a few trips for February, but those may have to wait until at least next year. Billeting can be a little like dating. You end up with someone who looks like a good match, hope you’re compatible, and discover a few things after they move in that probably should have been included in the profile.

NEW has a lot going for him. He has lots of nieces and nephews. He says he will eat anything. He even says he always cleans his plate. And then there’s the big one: he would rather pack a lunch than go out for lunch every day. This makes him a very rare find.

We didn’t swipe left or right on any of our hockey boys. They just showed up, stayed awhile, and eventually moved on to whatever came next. We weren’t a great fit for our EX. He was dealing with his own stuff, and we were dealing with ours. But somewhere along the way, he decided we were a good, stable place for another kid. So he did a little greasing of the skids on his way out.

I kind of like that. The boy who left our house may have helped us find the boy who replaced him. Maybe that’s how this whole billet thing is supposed to work. You open a door for one kid, learn a few things, occasionally buy 47 pounds of food that nobody eats, and eventually another kid walks through the same door.

We still don’t know if NEW will be a keeper. For now, he eats what we eat, cleans his plate, wants to pack his lunch, has his own upstairs bedroom, and apparently sleeps well enough to keep the thermostat company.

After everything that happened this week, I’m willing to let the billet gods have the final say. So far, they seem to be saying, “Keep this one.”

The Hockey House Is Cursed

Sometimes, when you’re writing something, you get the feeling the end hasn’t happened yet. As I was writing my most recent hockey installment, that is how I felt. It just seemed like there were a couple of threads that hadn’t quite finished unraveling. My intuition isn’t always right, but when it comes to hockey boys, I seem to have developed a pretty good feel for when the next shoe is about to drop.

Our newest hockey boy has been with us for two weeks yesterday. While that easily works out to 14 days, he has not actually been here for 14 days. Less than a week after he arrived, he left for Minnesota for the NAHL Showcase. With driving time included, they were gone for more than five days. Now that the season is getting into full gear, the volunteering has started to kick in, too. So, while we have been a place for his stuff for two weeks, Judy and I have had exactly one true sit-down meal with him. Apparently, we are running a hockey-themed storage facility with occasional breakfast service.

Three weeks ago, our present hockey player was a potential captain of his NAHL team. He had what he thought was a good relationship with his coach, and he was excited about the season. He had been committed to an Ivy League school for almost four years, and even though there had been a coaching change at the school, he was excited to finish this season and start that part of his life. Then life decided it had other plans. He was traded more than two weeks ago, completely out of the blue. Then he caught a stick in the eye and needed stitches. If the stick had hit him just a little lower, it could have blinded him. So, even though the rules don’t require it, he wears a full mask instead of just a visor when he plays. Then he got stuck living with us and our somewhat boring form of existence.

Until this past weekend, he at least had a buddy at our house. That “buddy” told the coach he wanted to be traded over the weekend and left first thing Sunday morning. While our current boy had already started connecting with the other guys, that accelerated the process. Then came Tuesday’s big bomb. The Ivy League coach de-committed him. In English, he won’t be going to that school to play hockey. If he wants to play hockey in college, he and his advisor now have to start from scratch to find the right school. And he had nobody at our house to really discuss it with beyond Judy and me. With our exposure to hockey only beginning when we started billeting seven years ago, I’m not sure we were equipped to provide the kind of support he needed.

On the good side of the equation, he has played a lot of games in the NAHL, and he continues to get opportunities here. He was selected as one of the captains earlier this week. In only two weeks, he has established himself as an important part of the team. His coach let him know he has his back and won’t let him finish his junior hockey career without a D1 commitment. So, after getting the news, he let us know he was going to hang out with one of his hockey buddies for the evening. That eventually evolved into, “I’m just going to go ahead and spend the night at his place.” This is where the previous version of this tale ended. Except, apparently, it wasn’t the end.

There were clues that things were moving toward us having an empty house. The night before, I received a text from the man who is now the “billet dad.” He texted me, “I contacted the coach about him staying the night. The coach said it was fine.” I knew he was spending the night at the other house, but getting the coach involved did escalate the possibility that their house might become the permanent solution. Then there was the sausage. When I was at the store yesterday, I was picking up a few things to make sure my daughter’s family had some variety for dinner. I already had regular andouille sausage at the house. But knowing our billet boy might eat some, I grabbed turkey sausage as a substitute. As I put it in the cart, I actually asked myself, “Will it even matter?” At the time, I thought I was wondering whether he would eat any of it. Looking back, I think part of me was already assembling the evidence. Turkey sausage may have been my subconscious filing a missing-person report.

Since then, I received a call mid-afternoon from the billet coordinator. There was a poor attempt at small talk before I finally asked, “Good news or bad news?” Good news would have translated into finding out whether a new player was a fit for our house. Bad news would involve a player leaving. My pause earlier in the day suddenly seemed a little more prophetic. Judy doesn’t remember me mentioning it to her, but maybe she wasn’t paying close attention. “Well, it does seem like your house is cursed. With the news he has gotten lately, the coach thinks he should have a house where he has a buddy.”, said the billet coordinator. And so it went. We were told we had done nothing wrong, and I said our only concern with him was the pork allergy. It was cordial. Nobody was mad. Nobody was blaming anybody. But I can’t lie. It hurts a little.

Presently, we still plan on having our breakfast on game-day Friday. But if there are no replacement boys in the house two weeks from now, Judy has already said she doesn’t want to do it anymore. And I get it. After being assigned five boys and losing all five, it starts to feel like we are the hockey version of the last apartment available after the good ones have been rented. We have had some fine young men in our house. But based on the coaches’ evaluations, more than half of them weren’t good enough to play hockey for him. The other one didn’t get enough playing time, and the one who hasn’t quite cleared out his stuff yet wants a house with a buddy.

I understand that not all houses are for all hockey boys. Our tolerance for some qualities probably isn’t as high as it is at other houses. If we are rejected for that reason, I can take it. There are worse things than finding out that your house isn’t the right fit for a teenage hockey player. There are also fewer teenagers involved.

If this stretches out for too long, we can start planning our lives a little differently. Judy wanted to take a cruise this winter. If we go too many weeks without boys, it will allow me to start thinking we are ready to retire from the chaos and planning they bring into our lives. We can still go to all the games if we want. It is just different when you are watching games where it isn’t “our” boy or boys playing. If I don’t feel invested in the players, it is hard to feel invested in the whole hockey package.

After losing five kids, I am very jaded. Getting emotionally involved with another kid takes effort. Last year was easy compared to this. We had one boy for the whole season, and the other two split the season. Three kids. Very manageable. This year, we have already exceeded that, and we aren’t even six weeks into the season. So, if it seems like my opinion of billeting hockey boys has flipped to a “no” vote, it isn’t far off.

When things go smoothly, or at least have some amount of stability, it really isn’t a bad gig. I enjoy ratcheting my age back a few years and talking strategy and life with the boys. There is something pretty cool about having a teenager sitting at the kitchen counter one minute talking about hockey and the next minute asking you about life. But when they move on so quickly, the effort just barely outweighs the “Why bother?”

Tomorrow, my opinion may change. I know myself well enough to understand that another hockey boy could walk through our door, fit into the house, eat my food, make us laugh, and completely ruin this carefully constructed argument. Right now, though, it would have to be a pretty good fit to convince me to disrupt our lives again.

Next year was going to be our last year anyway. Maybe we are just meant to bow out a little sooner. It seems our kids and grandkids need us more than the local NAHL team does this year.

The Protein Policeman

Sunday night was the first dinner Judy and I had with our hockey boy. He had gotten back from Minnesota by bus before sunrise and helped our other hockey player, who was leaving Sunday, pack a few things before going to bed. When he woke up, he woke in a house that had only one hockey billet living in it—the guy he saw in the mirror.

He talked to us about the previous week of hockey life before meeting one of the other players for breakfast. The team had lost all three games at the Showcase. He claimed the somewhat lopsided scores weren’t the result of the goalies. They were the result of defensemen who had lost their first love. They prefer offense to defense.

I was a little nervous about the responsibility that had been handed to me for dinner. I marinated the chicken like I always do. The remaining hockey boy was the one with the pork allergy, which meant this wasn’t just a matter of putting dinner on the table. Now I had a small food-safety operation involving a teenager, a grill and my reputation as a competent adult.

I had already sprayed a couple of types of oven cleaner on the cooking grates. I scraped and scrubbed them, trying to remove every memory the grates had ever had of touching a sausage or a rack of ribs. I heated the grill to “really hot” a couple of times to cook off anything that might still be left on the grates. At that point, I was pretty sure the grill was cleaner than most surgical equipment.

And beyond all that, it would make me physically sick if something I fed him caused a reaction. I didn’t want to be the guy who sent our hockey player upstairs for the evening because Dad couldn’t properly decontaminate a grill.

After 5:00, Judy put the smashed potatoes into the oven to bake. The potatoes had already been boiled, so they would crisp up nicely. Paprika, onion and garlic powder, salt and pepper made these things almost good enough to eat without ketchup. Judy and the hockey boy seem to think Chick-fil-A sauce makes them even better.

The roasted broccoli isn’t incredible, but it does round out the textures the meal offers.

In parallel with everything else, Judy threw together some dough for cinnamon rolls. It quickly became clear she had done something to spank the yeast a little too hard. She gave the dough some more yeast vitamins and hoped she could salvage them. One tray would be for the “three of us.” Until we get another hockey boy, that’s what we are. The other tray would be for the family that had just had twins—aka my daughter’s family.

Shortly after 6:00, we sat down for dinner. I had some reservations about saying a Christian prayer with our Jewish hockey boy. Yes, the pork allergy does add a certain level of irony to that sentence. But Judy showed no hesitation, and we prayed.

As he ate his first plate, I kept waiting for him to spasm and fall off his chair. Then he had a second piece of chicken. Then a third. He let me know that any ill effects would take a little time to show up, which was exactly the kind of information I wanted to hear while eating dinner.

I attempted to enjoy my meal while still dealing with taste buds whose sensitivity had been dialed back to almost COVID-like levels. Would I pass this test? Would his mom come down hard on me if I fed him something that took him off his game? After dinner, he grabbed a couple of waters and headed upstairs. He’d let me know how he was doing when he came back down.

That was reassuring.

Sort of.

After Judy’s transformation back into her normal self while the “dish fairy” cleaned up the kitchen a few days ago, the dishes were piling up again. We put the leftovers we actually observed into appropriate containers and put them into the refrigerator. It appeared the dirty dishes would get at least another day to thrive while minimizing the amount of usable space on our counters.

While our hockey boy watched football, played video games or talked to important people in his life, including his hockey advisor, Judy coaxed the reluctant cinnamon rolls into a fluffy enough form that they should bake up okay. She covered them with cream cheese icing, which made whatever yeast trauma they had experienced earlier largely irrelevant.

They were good, and our hockey boy even decided they were worth the calories. He also let me know I hadn’t served him any flawed chicken. The pork cooties from the grill had been successfully purged, and I was free from guilt.

At least where the chicken was concerned.

After watching our show—we’re in Season 5 of Modern Family—we went to bed and read for a while. At some point, we heard noise in the kitchen that involved the microwave. Was chicken being heated up? Was another cinnamon roll being consumed? Was he eating something else?

At least one of those questions had to be answered “yes.”

I didn’t think much more about it until morning.

I started the coffee and inventoried the cinnamon rolls. No obituaries were necessary.

Then I thought about the chicken.

I looked in the refrigerator and didn’t see the chicken pan. I looked around the kitchen, wondering where that pan might have ended up. Of course, it was at the bottom of the stack of last night’s dishes.

And the chicken was still in it.

It had been sitting there the whole time.

For more than twelve hours, my carefully prepared, grill-decontaminated, pork-free chicken had been conducting a completely different food-safety experiment.

If we’d caught it before bed, we might have salvaged it. At that point, though, the difficult but correct move was to throw it away.

I tried to express my frustration to Judy without pointing fingers. Ultimately, we share the kitchen, so I deserve as much blame as she does. The bigger downer, at least from my perspective, was that I had spent all that time preparing and cooking the chicken. I had already factored it into the meal plans for the rest of the week.

Fried rice? Barbecue chicken pizza? Rice bowls?

All of those plans would now have to be rejiggered around the chicken that no longer existed.

Darn.

Just because we’re old and have accumulated a little wisdom doesn’t mean we’re always wise. Sometimes we assume the other person has something handled because, in our heads, of course they do. A simple question can prevent twelve hours of perfectly good chicken from becoming garbage.

And if you’re afraid of being considered a whiny nag, there’s a choice to make. Would you rather take the grilled chicken you labored over to the trash can with your tail between your legs, or get a little pushback from your wife because you asked whether somebody put it away?

Maybe this is the reminder I needed to take my role as the resident protein policeman more seriously.

I just need to figure out what hat a protein policeman wears.

The Great Stone Heist

A few weeks ago, I stumbled across the sales guy for our subdivision—the guy who “lives” in the model home. We hadn’t seen each other in a while, so we had a few things to catch up on. I needled him about whether the stuff he was throwing into the dumpster from the back of his truck was all work-related or whether he had snuck some junk from home into the truck purge. He admitted there may have been a little of both.

Whether the guilt was the reason he told me about a pallet of free stone sitting on the corner or whether it was just friendship, I didn’t think I was a candidate to use any of it. We did our typical fist bump and headed our separate ways—me on foot and him in his truck.

I mentioned the stone to my son as a possible landscaping option, but he couldn’t figure out how to use it either. Then I realized there might actually be a project for me. With almost no rain over the past few months, I had nearly forgotten about my ongoing “mulch sliding into the street” problem around our newly planted tree. I was confident it would eventually rain again, because apparently God has a sense of humor when it comes to landscaping.

I picked through the pile and found some ugly stones along with a bunch that were a pretty consistent thickness. I was still a little timid about reacquiring my old “stone whisperer” skills, so I went to Home Depot for a few supplies. Up to this point, the project had cost me exactly $0.

I needed gravel, topsoil and a stone hammer. The first two were easy. The hammer was more complicated. I looked through their entire inventory of hammers, searching for something with a square striking head and a backside that looked like a normal hammer, except without the part designed to pull nails. I wanted something solid that could chip a stone if reshaping became necessary.

Their selection was inadequate, but I found one that offered a few advantages over the hammers I already owned. And honestly, since the project was still practically free, the hammer was going to be my trophy of accomplishment.

At checkout, I mentioned the project to the clerk. He showed me where I could order the proper stone hammer through the service desk and handed me his business card. He later explained that he wasn’t blatantly soliciting customers for his side business while on the Home Depot clock, but he wasn’t opposed to it if the situation could be justified.

I admired the entrepreneurial spirit.

With the supplies in my trunk and my new hammer arriving by UPS the next day, I could see the project coming together.

Because I was still a little timid about my stonework, I texted the Home Depot guy about helping me. He had told me he was a stone mason, and I figured if I was going to do this, I might as well have someone around who actually knew what he was doing. I also mentioned the “stone stash” that would be his for the picking.

He came over the next day and said he could easily help. I offered to ride with him to the pile, but the pictures I had sent him apparently gave him enough confidence to find it himself.

Everything was fine until I got the text a few minutes later.

The supervisor had spotted him picking through the stones and thought he was some guy trying to scrounge free material without authorization.

Technically, he was.

He just had a better story.

I sent a few texts to my subdivision sales guy—the same guy who had originally told me about the stone—and got the situation cleaned up. It turned out nobody cared who took the stone. They just wanted the stone to disappear.

So the great stone heist was really just a communication problem.

This morning, my stone mason showed up promptly at 9:30. I had done some pre-work. I pulled back the weed mat and made sure the stones I had already hauled home were visible. Comparing the thickness of one stone to another was important, which was exactly the kind of highly technical responsibility I was hoping to avoid.

Our first goal was getting the wall about four inches above the curb. Once we established that height, we put the thickest stones on the bottom. That required some digging to get everything level, although the trick was not digging any deeper than necessary.

Once the foundation was established, we started on the cap—the top course of the wall. The stone mason ran his hand over the stones, feeling for changes in thickness. I pulled out my long level, because apparently I still had something to contribute.

The biggest challenge was keeping the cracks from lining up. The stones needed to overlap like Legos, with each piece connected to two or more others. That way, the wall gets stronger as it goes up instead of becoming a very expensive pile of rocks.

The final product wasn’t perfect, but considering my trophy hammer was the most expensive part of the project, I was happy.

My stone mason gave me a quote on replacing the plastic retaining wall in my flower beds. Then I went with him to pick a few more stones while providing cover from any supervisors who might need to boost their egos. Eventually, he headed out.

I cleaned up the area and made my wife put her shoes on so I could brag about the job we had done.

In my younger years, I would happily spend a few days doing a project that someone else could have completed in a few hours. Those days are behind me. I’m now perfectly happy to pay someone a fair wage to help preserve two things: my body and my self-esteem.

Preserving my body is obvious. The self-esteem part is a little more complicated. My wife has strong opinions about how certain things around the house should be done. I haven’t mowed the grass myself in years, and I have discovered that outsourcing a job comes with a valuable side benefit. If I don’t build the stone wall, any criticism Judy may have about the wall doesn’t stick to me. “Boy, I wish he had done a better job,” I can say, and suddenly, I’m on the same team.

I’m not afraid of the work. I’ve simply reached an age where I appreciate the strategic value of having someone else hold the hammer when the final inspection takes place. A good contractor saves you time. A great contractor gives you someone to blame.

A scapegoat for hire is a cheap version of marital bliss.

Yes, you can quote me on that one.

You Never Know What’s Around the Next Bend

Before leaving for Saturday’s walk, I had to outwait the rain. There are big promises in the coming days, and this little spritz this morning was just supposed to whet our appetites. I opted to finish up the French toast in the fridge rather than make whole-wheat toast. There is an equation I will likely need some AI help with: What is the necessary ratio of eating leftover food to making new food? Is there a variable for the number of participants on both the front end and back end of the equation? These are the questions that matter when you’re retired. I filled my wife’s coffee and heated the full cup for 30 seconds without adding any milk. No further barriers prevented me from leaving.

Before I reached the park to do my handful of laps, a car pulled to the curb right beside me. “Have you seen any dogs running around?” I hadn’t, so I replied accordingly. I thought it was wise that she hadn’t asked about a particular breed or flashed a poster at me. Maybe these dogs sneak under the fence or escape through the gate often. Getting too specific with people who aren’t dog people might result in a blank stare. This wasn’t her first dog-tracking rodeo.

As I entered my circular path, I painted a target on the backs of the two people ahead of me. I assumed they were mom and son. The target was figurative, although my competitive walking brain doesn’t always understand that distinction. When I’m walking solo, I choose my pace based on a complicated formula involving humidity, temperature and the intensity of my plantar fasciitis. When I share the path, I shift into high gear. I’d rather they eat my figurative dust than I eat theirs. Any pain I feel is secondary.

The first time I passed them was near the playground, where the dad and two other sons were “family-ing.” The next time I passed the playground, my lead was well established, and the youngest son, probably six, had just exclaimed, “I landed on my feet!” All the clues pointed to this being the first time he had let go of the swing chains and received a 10 from all of the judges. I didn’t stop to congratulate him, but I was rooting for the kid.

The rest of my interaction with the family was a little darker. As I wandered the path counterclockwise in my wide-brimmed hat and dark sunglasses, the young son separated from his two siblings and his parents. This put me between the parents and their impish child for most of a rotation. They yelled at him repeatedly, apparently trying to keep him from doing too much more wandering. The one time I passed him, I didn’t make faces or give him “cat claws.” I gave him an innocent smile that was mostly obscured by the hat. I’ve decided it’s best to save my scary faces for people who know I’m messing with them rather than unleashing them on complete strangers.

When I got back to the house, a quick look at my iPhone showed my wife was playing grandma at my daughter’s house. I hopped on my computer, where I was soon greeted by a text from our remaining “original” hockey player. He had requested a trade. He had done this earlier in the week, but the coach had talked him off the ledge. The coach’s recommendation was to wait two weeks and see how he felt. Apparently, two weeks had become an unnecessarily long period of time.

The request to help move the playhouse sitting on our front porch, acquired on a big-item trash day, to our daughter’s house for Ellie was denied. It sounds like he’ll be packing up and leaving immediately after they return from Minnesota tomorrow morning. So much for the playhouse.

I passed the unfortunate information on to my wife and the billet coordinator. Judy said, “Too bad!” The billet coordinator let me know there were a few people ahead of us on the “empty bed” list. I teased the coordinator, “Is our house cursed?” It isn’t, but it feels that way sometimes. Of our first three boys, two were brothers who wanted to stay together. Then we got the veteran who didn’t get as much playing time as he wanted last year and is now waiting on a trade. Our willingness to be flexible about which boys we received is probably part of the reason we’re down to one boy right now. Yes, I’m a little jealous of the houses with multiple boys who are getting plenty of playing time. On the positive side, we do have one boy the coach seems to like. He just can’t eat pork.

At some point, you have to laugh. The morning had started with a little rain, some leftover French toast and a walk where my biggest concern was whether I could pass a family before they reached the next turn. A couple of hours later, our billet situation had changed again. That’s life lately. I keep thinking I’m getting a glimpse of what the next few days will look like, and then something shows up and rearranges the furniture.

Today’s lesson is really just a reminder. If you think you can accurately anticipate what is going to happen over the next week, or even the next couple of days, you probably aren’t putting yourself in a place where you can fully live your life. I wish I had something more profound than that.

I ride the rapids every day I wake up. Some days, it’s a gentle ride. Other days, I wonder what else might come around the next bend. The older I get, the more I realize there isn’t much value in trying to anticipate every twist. You do what you can to be prepared. You make your plans. You show up. You enjoy the walk while you have it.

The rest is way above my pay grade.

And maybe that’s okay. I don’t know what the next few days will bring. I don’t know who will be sleeping in the extra bed, what plans will change, or what unexpected text will show up on my phone. But I do know I’ll wake up tomorrow and get another day.

At this point in my life, I’m learning to appreciate that part more than I used to. I just hope my retired brain does a better job navigating the rapids than the brain I had 30 years ago would have done. Of course, the brain change isn’t optional anyway.

The Plans Could Wait

As my daughter and the twins prepared to spend their first night together outside of a hospital, my daughter’s body was remembering that it was no longer pregnant. Her body was rushing back toward its original configuration, and she realized it would be helpful to have a support parent nearby, just in case. Judy also fulfilled an earlier request from our daughter by delivering a French toast casserole for breakfast. Evidently, postpartum support now comes with catering.

When Judy returned around 8:30 in the morning, she wasn’t alone. Ellie was with her. I had been given a few days off from grandpa duty, so I was mentally prepared to give up whatever part of my day was necessary to keep her entertained. After our usual clementines, with the optional dried mango, I was ready to reacquaint myself with my granddaughter. The plans I had for the day were only marginally important anyway. The next few hours were a blur.

We walked to a different, more toddler-friendly playground about a mile from the house. Ellie was a little timid at first, but she eventually dove in. The slide was better than our usual one, and the tunnel was perfect for a game where Grandpa reached through one opening while Ellie crawled toward another. This qualified as premium entertainment. We wandered around the open area near the park, where one of Ellie’s favorite words, “doggie,” quickly became relevant. We found a dog in the backyard of one of the houses. He looked old, and I was initially concerned about his temperament. Then I noticed he had three legs. He didn’t look threatening, and he certainly wasn’t a threat, but we still had to return to that yard several times so Ellie could announce “doggie” to the appropriate recipient.

The playground also contained a pair of socks and shoes that appeared to belong to the same person. There was a small water playground nearby, but the water had been turned off for more than a couple of weeks. I have no idea how someone could leave their shoes there for that long without realizing they were missing. I know Ellie wouldn’t. The mile home was a different story. Ellie was ready to be home shortly after we left, which meant Grandpa eventually carried her for a significant portion of the trip. When she was walking, however, she was busy collecting weed samples from the yards along the sidewalk and dropping them into the storage compartment underneath the stroller. Eventually, she realized she would have to run tests on all of these samples and had failed to document where each one came from. The scientific process demanded that she throw them out.

She was more successful with some of her field research. At one house, she insisted on completely denuding a birch tree of its bark from about her shoulder height to her knees. She peeled off each piece, scrunched it in her hands, and moved on to the next piece. There was a “For Sale” sign in the yard, and I don’t think I saw any cameras capturing my discomfort. If this had been my child, I would have bolted her into the stroller, smiled through the screams, and kept moving. I am, however, a grandfather. Grandfatherhood has given me a remarkable ability to redefine questionable behavior as “a learning experience.”

Even dogs that showed no particular interest in participating from the other side of the street were awarded the title of “doggie.” I had to keep Ellie from hopping the curb and attempting to catch them and give them a hug. The dog walkers generally understood the situation and kept their doggies moving. The “Grandpa-carrying” portion of the walk introduced another concept: touching trees that hang over the sidewalk. Ellie saw no meaningful distinction between those trees and the trees that required Grandpa to walk across the brown stuff formerly known as grass. Grandpa won that battle, barely.

We share water on most walks. I tolerate a higher degree of floaties and crusties on my straw than many people would find acceptable. Ellie especially likes it when I drink a small Gatorade and leave a little in the bottom. I fully tighten the lid, then back it off just enough that she can unscrew it herself. She then buries the mouth of the bottle in her mouth and works diligently to extract every molecule of flavor remaining. This is one of the privileges of being a granddaughter.

Lunch was spaghetti, and its journey from plate to mouth was not especially efficient. Her clothes provided the clearest evidence. The bib captured what it could, but the fork-and-fist feeding techniques still have some limitations. The backup plan of peanut butter and toast also experienced some logistical challenges. When Ellie finally went down for her nap, I ran to the store for a couple of things we needed for dinner.

At WinCo, I ran into someone buying what appeared to be every bulk bay leaf in the store. “We live in the country,” she explained. “Our neighbor likes to make curry, so she always has us buy them when we come to WinCo.” There was obviously a reciprocal agreement involved, but I didn’t dig into it. Some relationships are best left to the bay leaves.

At Sam’s, I needed two bundles of flowers. Pink roses for our daughter and a nice arrangement for Judy. The woman handing out chip samples next to the flowers wasn’t having much luck. “I’m not moving any chips, so I might as well help you out.” She proceeded to help me pick out both flower bundles. She also showed me that there are bags on the side of the flower station to cover the bottoms of the stems. I have purchased flowers for decades and had somehow missed this entire system. I scanned everything with the app and checked out. I also avoided the chip samples. There are some sacrifices a man must make.

I wasn’t home for long before Ellie wailed. She had been talking to herself before I left, so I have no idea how long she actually slept. My attempt to watch our hockey boys play the Cow Punchers in Minnesota didn’t get very far. It wasn’t quite snack time, but Ellie had reviewed the schedule and decided it was. With Judy gone to take our son and daughter-in-law to the airport for their long journey to India, and me trying to keep a toddler entertained until her parents returned from doing “new baby” things, I didn’t make much progress on the dinner I was preparing for them.

Eventually, Judy returned, and everyone else left. I started prepping onions and stew meat for what I eventually called “Hungarian Beef Fajitas Pasta.” It isn’t the real name. It just seemed to best describe whatever combination of ingredients ended up in our bowls. Judy looked at the pile of dirty dishes and temporarily transformed into her alternate form: Dish Fairy. I’m not a Pokémon person, but the description seemed appropriate.

Between now and whenever our daughter’s life settles into some sort of manageable rhythm, Judy and I are going to be a couple of the lackeys who help make that possible. It isn’t exactly the vision I had for retirement, but I wouldn’t choose any other path. I get to attempt mind melds with my granddaughter. I get to watch two tiny babies begin their lives. I get to see our daughter figure out what it means to be a mother of three while knowing she doesn’t have to figure it out alone.

I’m learning that being involved isn’t a scheduled activity. There isn’t always an appointment on the calendar or a defined block of time where Grandpa is officially on duty. Sometimes it’s a casserole. Sometimes it’s flowers. Sometimes it’s carrying a tired toddler home while she collects weeds for a scientific study she will never complete. Sometimes it’s just being there.

I’m still working on the flexibility part of this retirement thing, especially when it involves putting my own plans aside. But there are worse things to learn how to do.

And right now, I’m in a pretty happy place.

Two More Players

Yesterday, I had no babysitting duties and no expectations to spend time with my pregnant daughter. It was the big day. Those creatures she had been supporting for a few months were finally going to come out, breathe their own air, and circulate their own blood. Her headaches, swollen legs, and all the other things I had heard about secondhand would either disappear forever or eventually convince her that her house needed more humans to love.

This left me with a rare set of circumstances. How was I going to spend a long day without something involving my family? Of course, Judy is family, but she is a big girl and can take care of herself. After the morning routine, where I refill her coffee a couple of times, she puts on her headset and goes into work mode for most of the day. Until dinner, I am only slightly more important than a piece of furniture.

Grandpa 2.0 was planning a more relaxed introduction to the new additions. I was excited to meet them, but with our first grandchild, we may have been a little closer to the smothering end of the spectrum. This time, we were more chill. We had been doing the “old, but still nimble enough” routine for a few months, and we knew our daughter had a much better grasp on parenting than we did when we first became grandparents. She was going to be locked into full-on mom mode. Beyond some tag-teaming of Ellie and a few nights when Momma Judy would stay over to help get the babies on a schedule, my role would remain at home with the hockey boys. I had my own small population to manage.

So, what did I do with this rare free day?

I did one really dumb thing.

My email is hosted at Google, and I decided I would play IT guru and clean up a few things. My email was working fine, but Google suggested a couple of tweaks that would supposedly make things better. After dipping my toes in the water and not breaking anything, I dove in. The result was that my usual ton of slightly-better-than-spam emails became almost nonexistent. The actual spam dried up, too. The only emails making it through were being forwarded from my Yahoo account.

I don’t need spam emails to feel popular, and I don’t need much of my regular email either. With all my bills on autopay, I can go days without an important email. So, while I am a little mad at myself, I suppose I have given myself the gift of not having to create new rules for the new breed of incoming emails or spend time deleting them. I will take the gift and thank myself.

You’re welcome.

A couple of weeks ago, I saw the guy who “lives” in the model home in our subdivision. With all the new construction going on, he told me about a pallet of rock that was free for the taking. I noodled on it for a while but couldn’t think of anything I could use it for. Then I noticed the tree near our mailbox was living with a ridiculous grade between the sidewalk and the street.

Obviously, the solution was free rocks.

I made two trips to gather enough stones to try to build a little stone wall around the tree. Many of the rocks were ugly, misshapen things, but as I dug through the pile, I found some pretty good ones on the bottom. Nothing worthy of its own photo shoot, but if I can pull this off, the tree should be happier. I also won’t have to buy any more “mulch glue” to keep the mulch from being sucked into the street. If the whole idea goes wrong, my biggest problem will be figuring out what to do with all the rocks I gathered. They’re pretty heavy, so it could become a multi-week project of selectively dropping them into the rolling trash bin. Let’s hope it doesn’t come to that.

Since the hockey boys had blown us off for sushi the night before, and Judy and I don’t love garlic bread quite as much as they do, we didn’t bother making it for our Italian meal Sunday night. That didn’t mean it couldn’t become French toast. Judy cut the leftover bread in half and set me up with eight slices, which would get me through two meals. There was still some leftovers from Sunday, so Judy ate that.

We like breakfast for dinner. It just doesn’t make for much conversation. When two people are eating different things with limited options, you can’t say, “Give me another small serving of watermelon,” or whatever else might fill that little empty space in your belly. The plates were cleared, Judy headed to her bike for a few laps around the neighborhood, and I put my AirPods in and listened to my book while doing what I hope was the last watering of the year. I’m happy the heat is gone. I’m also really tired of watering every other day.

At some point during the day, one of our brief interactions produced the question, “I’m really hungry for some custard. What do you think?” Judy didn’t disagree, so I pulled up a recipe that has appeared on my Facebook feed approximately seventeen thousand times. While I finished watering and she got back from her bike ride, she jumped in and made it. After it went into the oven for 55 minutes with a water bath, we climbed into the hot tub. After the hot tub, we had time to start watching our shows before we even had the custard. Did we already watch the second season of The Pitt? Darn. I was looking forward to that.

We eventually ate the custard.

We both had seconds.

It was a pretty normal evening.

Except that somewhere in the middle of all this very important business, we were tracking the progress of our daughter delivering twins. We had been getting updates by text. Pitocin. Epidural. A trip to the OR. More waiting. More texts. We didn’t know exactly how things were going, but we knew enough to know that things were moving.

And then they were here.

Two healthy baby girls.

Our daughter didn’t need a C-section.

Just like that, the most spectacular thing happening in our family was unfolding while I was fixing email, collecting rocks, eating French toast, watering plants, making custard, and watching TV.

I’ll take a month of boring. I’ll take a year. I’ll take years where nothing particularly exciting happens and still call myself fortunate if days like this occasionally show up.

At our age, things happen. We don’t sweat every detail. Our kids are adults now. We get to cheer for them and give honest answers when they ask. We get to watch them navigate their own lives without feeling like we have to jump into every problem and solve it for them.

Before the kids were adults, one of my fears was, “What if something happens to my wife or me?” Now they’re out of the house, building families, solving adult problems, and occasionally making us grandparents twice over in a single evening.

We get to cheer. We get to compliment them when they handle something well. If they have a rough time, we can ask, “What did you learn? What would you do differently if something like that happens again?” We get to meet them wherever they are.

If we did our job well, maybe that’s what this stage of parenting is supposed to look like. Less hands-on, more coaching. We get to watch our kids use the skills they learned while they were living under our roof and hope they realize we weren’t completely clueless.

And if one of the benefits of being a coach is getting to interact with the second team, I’m pretty excited about my new roster.

Two more players.

I can’t wait to meet them.

Monday Had Other Ideas

Monday started like it normally does. Well, not completely normal. As the sun rises later, my requests for blackout curtains become less of an issue. Sleeping past 7:00 is something I take full advantage of this time of year. If daylight saving time ever gets the boot like my married son wants, I don’t care to know what that will do to my sleep. I’m already lucky if Judy wakes up before me and makes the coffee once a week. Breakfast lately has been homemade bagels, thanks to Judy’s new hobby. They aren’t perfect, but they’re getting there. Some could rise a little more. We’re also still figuring out whether freshly ground flour, which requires the flour mill that was part of the hobby, plays by the same rules as regular flour. Yesterday’s experiment was cinnamon bagels. So far, nobody has been hospitalized.

At 9:00, I had my regularly scheduled meeting with a friend in Asia. He listens to me overtalk, and I try to ask questions that help him with his English. He thinks he’s getting the better end of the deal, but I genuinely enjoy our conversations. He knows all about our hockey players, the Oklahoma heat, and the upcoming babies. I know about his son’s health challenges, his mom’s gardening, and life as a college professor. We talk about spiritual things, too, but we could easily fill an hour with random questions and whatever happens to be going on that week. It’s an hour well spent.

After that, I was surprised when my daughter wanted to hang out with Dad/Grandpa for a few hours. This was supposed to be the day she was induced, and she was ready to get those babies out of her belly. She had skipped church the day before because, according to her, she had an overwhelming desire to have them born. She stopped for coffee on the way over and announced that she had now carried the twins longer than she carried her first child. If Ellie were a casserole, she seemed to be baked just fine. Our plan was simple: pick up a few groceries so we could feed the hockey boys before they left for the showcase in Blaine, Minnesota.

The Walmart trip went pretty smoothly, other than deciding whether Ellie wanted to push the cart from the bottom rack or be carried. The part that nearly brought me to violence was installing the “I am not a baby anymore” car seat in the back seat. Between the cumbersome seat and the retracting seat belt, it took me nearly ten minutes to get it attached to my daughter’s standards. There are moments when you realize parenthood doesn’t end. It just eventually involves more complicated car seats.

When we got home, my daughter informed me that she had basically nothing to eat at her house. “Surely you have more food here than we do,” she said. With church people planning to provide meals after the babies arrive and regular donations available from our kitchen, she had wisely left room for the coming food influx. Her cupboards had become a nutritional wasteland by design.

Ellie happily took care of the mashed potatoes, corn, and watermelon. My daughter helped eliminate some of the leftovers the boys had brought home from restaurants and never eaten. We had chicken, steak, and some good roasted carrots. I even patted myself on the back for clearing enough containers out of the refrigerator to create the possibility of cooking something new. I confirmed that my son and daughter-in-law had received their invitation to dinner and started looking forward to making some fresh leftovers.

That lasted about five minutes.

The hockey boys texted to say they were going out for sushi with another player. Suddenly, dinner depended entirely on whether our son was coming over. Eventually, his text arrived. We had someone to cook for.

For dinner, I was primarily the sous chef. I chopped the broccoli so it would roast properly. Sam’s has stopped carrying the bags of broccoli that used to cost around $4, and now the quality has gone down while the price has headed toward $6. I’m not sure what corporate executive decided that was a good trade, but I assume he doesn’t eat broccoli. Since Judy has officially designated me “The Meat Trimmer,” I prepped the chicken breasts for their Shake ’n Bake treatment. She handled the eggplant Parmesan. The rest of us enjoyed it. She did not seem particularly interested in joining us on that opinion. I also picked basil from our volunteer plant out back, and Judy pulled together my favorite pasta to finish the meal.

Even without the hockey boys, our son brought his appetite. There was a little pasta left, but everything else was within one meal of disappearing. We caught up over dinner, and I got the update that their trip wasn’t canceled, just delayed until the paperwork and travel schedule cooperate.

Meanwhile, after numerous questions about my daughter’s Monday night trip to the hospital, my repeated text response of “She’s getting induced tonight” became an innocent lie. It turns out there was a rush on delivering babies before fall arrives. There were no beds.

So much for the scheduled induction.

A scheduled induction is a great idea in theory. In practice, the hospital gets to schedule the schedule. I let everyone know the arrival would be postponed about 12 hours, give or take. Really, the babies will arrive whenever they decide the accommodations are acceptable.

Before bed, we got our final updates from the boys. Of course, the $400 sushi dinner was the best sushi they had ever had. Our age-out boy informed us that the peptides he had wouldn’t get him through Sunday, so he would have to reduce the daily dose a little until he returned. The other boy, who had been concerned about his playing time, let us know that he had talked to the coach and was told that if he still felt the same way in a couple of weeks, they would work through it. We mixed in some encouragement and affirmation, knowing we wouldn’t be up to see them off before they left at 7:00 the next morning.

A little chaos mixed with a little resolution. That seems to be how life works when you live close to some of your adult children and invite a few extra adults-in-training into your life. We pause our shows for updates. We adjust our viewing expectations. We listen to what they’re thinking and occasionally discover that their problems have become our problems simply because they happened to mention them in the kitchen.

Every once in a while, I find myself wondering, “Is this what we signed up for?”

Then I remember the alternative.

Nothing happening. Nobody needing anything. No car seats to fight, no hockey players to feed, no babies refusing to follow the hospital schedule, no refrigerator full of mystery containers, and no reason to pause the show because somebody just walked through the door with an update.

Boring may be somewhere in my future. I’m just not in any hurry to meet it.

I’d rather be disappointed that I didn’t get everything done than pleased with myself because I never left anything on the To-Do list.

Yeah.

I agree with that most of the time.

The First Weekend

The weekend’s hockey adventures turned out pretty well. The boys were on the ice, and despite a few penalties and the obligatory complaints about “the worst referees ever,” they came away with two wins. We also moved our seats about three spaces to the left from last year. We still have a blind spot on the ice, but our new position is virtually puck-proof. I consider that a successful relocation. So, after the first weekend, what do I want to remember?

As we were walking in from the parking lot, we bumped into a “hockey friend” who sat near us last season. I don’t think his tickets were actually near us, but he seems to share my appreciation for a good puck-proof seating arrangement. He had his four-year-old son with him. He had also grown out his hair and gotten a perm. I usually turn off my biometric identification skills on the weekend, so it took me a couple of minutes to figure out who he was and remember his name. His son had come to a few games last season, too, but he wasn’t talking then. Our friend brought him up to our seats, and he sat next to Judy. After we talked for a while, Judy decided I should move over so I wouldn’t have to talk through her. We continued talking, but his son kept asking, “Can I sit by your mom again?” That got a chuckle. Not a big laugh. Just enough to acknowledge that I had somehow become Judy’s child.

The breakfast club from Friday morning also had some success on the ice. I know the bacon had nothing to do with it, but maybe the pancakes with mini chocolate chips did. Of the seven players who attended breakfast, seven of the team’s nine goals over the weekend came from those who were there. With that kind of statistical evidence, I suspect the superstitious players will not allow me to discontinue the breakfast tradition. I may have accidentally created a responsibility for myself.

There was also a little confusion through text when we were trying to meet our new hockey boy’s parents. Eventually, we connected with them during the intermission between the first and second periods. Because we’re trying to be careful with pork products, they told us about a local restaurant that wasn’t quite as careful. They had ordered him calamari and cannoli. The calamari had been fried in the same oil as some pork products, and the cannoli contained gelatin with some pig-derived ingredients. Fortunately, everything worked out. The lesson Judy and I took away was simple: when it comes to feeding this one, err on the side of caution. His parents attend a lot of his games, so we’ll be seeing them throughout the season. I’m sure we’ll eventually get the food thing figured out, preferably before I accidentally serve him something that requires a family meeting.

While we were talking with them, the “official residents” of the seats to my right decided they were feeling crowded. They either shoved or gently pushed our seat cushions to the left. There was plenty of room, so it wasn’t really a problem. The problem was that I am a rule follower. My ticket tells me where my seat is. I like sitting where my ticket tells me to sit. There is a certain comfort in knowing that the seat cushion beneath me has been legally assigned to me. Judy reminded me that this was a small issue and one I could afford to “let go.” In theory, that is what I did. I moved the cushion and continued watching the game. I said nothing. I caused no scene. Internally, however, I may have opened a small investigation.

Hockey games qualify for the national anthem, and sometimes we get Jimi Hendrix’s version. Sometimes we get local “talent” singing it. Both games this weekend were just music. Judy and I did our best to provide a low-volume duet for the people around us. I don’t believe I heard any other supporting voices, so I’m assuming our contribution was appreciated. I suppose pulling off that hat was more effort than I realized. At least everyone stood quietly and put their phones down while the music played. At this point, that’s practically worshiping an object in our culture.

The babies are due Monday. Since they seem committed to baking as long as possible, they didn’t interfere with our first hockey weekend. If they had, Judy would have stayed home with our granddaughter, and I would have gone to support our boys. With a trip to a NAHL tournament later this week and no home games until early October, we may actually have a little time to spend with the new babies without hockey intervention. Of course, there’s another side to that equation. Our daughter may have her own ideas about how much she wants to share the babies while she tries to figure out how to fit two new people into the life she was already living. I remember what it was like when our kids were little. You can love them more than you can explain and still occasionally wonder when you’re going to get to finish a cup of coffee. So we’ll see how that goes.

The referees this weekend were about the normal level of “bad.” The ice had its own problems, too, which made things more difficult for the guys. Penalties happen. Referees call what they think they see. Sometimes they’re right. Sometimes they aren’t. When they see something incorrectly and the boys know it, the boys occasionally do a little self-correction of their own. They use blind spots and obstacles on the ice to disguise their interventions. I’m not a fan of the fights. They’re too obvious. I don’t like dirty play, either. I’d much rather see the boys play clean and let the game take care of itself. But I understand the temptation to provide a little behavioral correction when the people assigned to enforce the rules seem to have misplaced their glasses.

The first weekend went well. It wasn’t perfect, but both of our boys got assists. The team swept the other team, which is a pretty good way to start a season. There’s a long way to go. Will the rest of the season go this well? Will the coach tinker with things too much and accidentally complicate some of the chemistry that might otherwise develop? There’s plenty of time for things to get messy and get fixed again. That’s part of what makes the beginning of a season fun. Nobody knows exactly where it’s going yet.

For now, the boys are playing well, we have our puck-proof seats, breakfast appears to be producing goals, and I have been promoted to hockey breakfast coordinator. There are worse jobs. We’ll keep showing up, keep encouraging them, and keep enjoying the conversations along the way.

The hockey season will eventually become a collection of scores, standings, injuries, wins, losses, and things I’ve forgotten. I suspect the things I’ll remember most will be much smaller than that: a four-year-old asking to sit by Judy, pancakes with mini chocolate chips, a seat cushion moved three inches to the left that I definitely let go, and two boys getting assists. Mostly, I’ll remember a lot of weekends spent watching these guys become a little more like the people they’re going to be.